Day 19 of the 30 day blog challenge is something you miss. I miss my nan. I have missed my nan for 12 years, 6 months and 19 days. Or 4584 days. You are probably reading this thinking that all people at some point have to go through losing their grandparents, but you will never understand about my nan. She was special. One in a million. Joan Felicity Potts. She wasn’t really called that, she didn’t have a middle name so made one up because she liked the sound of it. My nan was a real old fashioned nan. If you imagine all of the things you would love to do with your nan, that’s what we did, and more. And we laughed, oh we laughed at everything. Sometimes if I concentrate hard enough I can still hear that laugh, it was more of a happy chuckle. She would take bread and butter into KFC, buy original chicken and chips and make herself some sandwiches. She loved shopping, loved the market, loved bingo and loved food. She also loved her family. She loved my grandad to her dying day, she loves him now wherever she is. She would have loved my boy. He would have been the apple of her eye. One of the saddest things I think about is how he will never know my nan and how she will never know him. In this life anyway.
My mum will cry reading this post. Even after nearly 13 years the pain is still an open wound in our family. She was taken away from us far too soon and very suddenly. We didn’t know, we didn’t have the chance to say goodbye, one moment she was alive, the next she was gone. The only comfort we can take from it is that she didn’t suffer.
I remember watching something when I was younger, I’m pretty sure it was Sabrina the teenage witch, she gets to spend one hour with someone who had passed away. I so wanted that to be me, I wanted to spend one hour with my nan so badly to tell her how much we all missed her. I wanted to make sure she knew how much she was, and still is, loved.
Everybody deserves a nan like mine, I only got her for 13 years but 13 years of knowing her is better than a whole life time of never knowing her.
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